It's not that I haven't had anything to blog about.
And it's not that I haven't necessarily had time.
And not that I haven't began numerous posts, only to stop and leave them in my draft box to complete at a "later date."
I don't really know what the reason is for my silence.
Not in the mood? Nothing exciting to talk about? Unmotivated? Overwhelmed?
I think it's possibly a combination of all 4.
For one, I have to "be in the mood" to post something. Which sounds kinda silly but it's true. If I don't have the ispiration and I try to write a post, I get frustrated and end up trashing it or just leaving it there for "when I am inspired". Maybe it's because deep down, I'm have this expectation that I have to write something soo profound to keep my reader's entertained. Or maybe it's because I'm afraid to expose my heart as an open book for all to read. Or maybe it's just the fact that writing can be overwhelming to me unless I have the inspiration. I don't really know.
Having nothing exciting to write about is a matter of the reader's opinion I guess. I'm sure I've had something more exciting to write about than just plain silence. But I guess I decided to resort to silence.
Unmotivated. That kinda goes along with "no ispiration." However, I feel like unmotivation is the story of my life right now. And I think we all know how that goes in our own lives (or maybe it's just me). If it's present in one part of life, it's there in every part. It's like a progressive disease. It develops in one small area, and begins to grow. If it's not caught and treated right away, it spreads. And soon it's infected every area and from there it continues to spiral downward. I feel as if I am climbing and fighting against the downward spiral at the moment. I've recognized my problem, maybe a bit too late, but early enough to have the strength to fight against it. My first treatment is to admit my problem. SO we shall see where it goes from here! ;)
Overwhelmed I think is a symptom of my unmotivational progressive disease. And since I know that just treating the symptoms doesn't erase the problem, I've realized I have to fix the cause of my disease before the rest of my sumptoms will disappear. Which leads me to the reason this whole disease began and my best prognosis is - plain and simple "laziness."
**Edited to add: Wow...I appologize for the long, boring, and completely unitentional therapuetic writing session I just had with myself. I just diagnosed myself with a disease I never realized I had prior to this post! About that open book...
So on to a more exciting and less intense update on my life! ;)
Well...It's officially 2013!! (I'm only a month late!) While I would love to do a run down of how extremely blessed year 2012 was, that looks a little overwhelming to me at the moment so I will just attempt to update you on the past few weeks. :)
Christmas was such a blessing, as it is every year. There's is just nothing comparable to plain and simple "family time."
FIrst Christmas was with the Eisenmann's:
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| These 2 are quite the rascals together! |
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| Deira being her sweet self! |
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| The 3 Stooges...well we used to be (or more like the 2 stooges and the other 1 easy prey) but now we're just 3 wonderful friends. :) |
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| The traditional "live play" of the Nativity. I think this year's was officially that fastest one on record...but it was still sweet. |
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| RIver putting together the puzzle I gave him. He is quite the "puzzle-er!" |
New Year's Eve at Brenda's. I was a loner since mom, dad, and jess were all in mexico over the new year. But I enjoyed the evening playing games and hanging out with brenda and the dotterer's!
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| Lovely appetizer table. |
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| Playing "Ha Ha" with out smiling. Good luck. |
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| Deira took her first steps!! But she hasn't taken many since...she's getting there! |
And since this post has become overwhelmingly long, I will sign off, with a promise of more posts in the near future! ;)
