My first real clinical.
It was not as stressful as I anticipated.
I didn't get overly nervous.
I only had a tiny stomach ache. But it passed.
To say I did everthing I should have, would be a lie.
I felt very unorganized.
I think I looked like a deer in the headlights all day long.
But it went well.
I was pleased.
And I'm actually excited for next week. :)
I was for-worned that this is the week when it gets "real."
I'm beginning to realize why.
I didn't think I would get too stressed, and I haven't until right now.
I'm in a bit of a panic mode.
I have two quizzes to study for and have very little time to do it.
I have 8 chapters to read and take notes on.
I have to write a "poem, song, or jingle" on a lung/thorax disease by tomorrow
And I'm stumped. And tired. And grumpy.
My creative juices went bye-bye and won't come back.
Then I have to share it with the class.
And I'm nervous.
I'm low on sleep. I feel like I could ralf. And I just want to throw something.
And my family is coming over for birthdays tonight, so I need to put on a smile!
And do my homework later.
So with all this on my lap, I decided to post instead.
Hoping it would spark some creative vibes...but I'm not feelin 'em.
Who wants to write about a lung disease?
I mean really.
How creative can that get?
Hoping to let off some frustration, instead of letting it off on someONE.
Do I feel better?
A little. Not much.
Well, not really.
I still have all this work to do.
It's not going to go away.
I think I could still ralf.
Maybe I need to eat something.
Something Healthy...
And I still don't have a smile.
But, even though I sound like a grumpy complainer, I want to do this.
And I WILL get through this.
And just since I feel negative right now, I will remind myself that
this is only the bottom of the mountain that I am about to climb!
So, I will just keep climbing, because I don't know any other way to reach the top!
Oh, and I guess I may as well do it with a smile... :)
Oh J! Look on the bright side: in less than 2 years you will be DONE DONE! You will be a pro and have it all down. You will be doing the important stuff and I will still be...well...I'll spare you the details! :)
ReplyDeletePlus...you are where God wants you! That's the best part of the whole deal, because if He wants you there He is going to give you the grace you need. BY HIS GRACE...you will survive. (and I will too!) I will say that I am having major withdrawls from all my friends who have their noses stuck in books! :) Love you...
Oh J! Why is it so overwhelming sometimes? I get overwhelmed with my small load, can't imagine what you and C have to deal with! Made me smile that you used "ralf" so much. You know what? That is one feeling I understand :)
ReplyDeleteTonight mom said to me, " What happened to Karla and Jeana and Courtney?" I wanted replied that we were all drowning in busyness! Sadly. I understand you K! :)
Hope you had a great Bday!
Its not about how fast you get there, or whats on the other side, its about the climb! keep up the hard work <3
ReplyDeleteDe ja vu, weren't we just talking about this stuff this past weekend?!? :)
ReplyDeleteThe good thing is that as we go along with more classes, more clinical, repeat...the dots start to connect and things get a little easier. I'm already feeling that way, majorly different this week than when we talked this weekend -- so hopefully you will be feeling that way soon!!! And if it's happening already, imagine how much better things could be in a few weeks!
"Trust in the LORD, and do good..." (Psalm 37:3) speaks to me. We believe we are where God wants us. Nursing is full of opportunities to "do good," so let's pray for the grace to zealously do the good He has set aside for us and trust that He will provide. More easily said than done, I realize, but we can all strive... :)
I'll be praying for you!
Ack, I didn't include my name in that post!
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